The
Pain
of
a
Foreign
Name As
someone
who
loves
creating
beautiful
foreign
names
for
myself,
I
have
always
enjoyed
the
thrill
of
becoming
someone
else,
even
if
only
for
a
moment.
But
recently,
I
have
come
to
realize
that
the
more
I
use
my
foreign
name,
the
more
it
reminds
me
of
my
sorrows. My
foreign
name
is
a
reflection
of
my
dreams
and
hopes,
but
it
also
carries
the
weight
of
my
past.
Every
time
I
introduce
myself
using
it,
I
can
feel
the
pain
and
hurt
of
my
past
creeping
up
on
me.
It's
almost
like
the
name
is
a
double-edged
sword,
granting
me
the
freedom
to
be
whoever
I
want
to
be,
but
also
reminding
me
of
where
I
came
from. The
reason
for
my
pain
and
heartache
is
not
because
of
my
foreign
name
itself,
but
the
memories
that
come
with
it.
Memories
of
past
relationships,
hardship,
and
disappointment
that
I
would
much
rather
forget.
But
every
time
I
use
my
foreign
name,
it
feels
like
I
am
reliving
those
moments. Sometimes
I
wonder
if
it
would
be
better
to
leave
my
foreign
name
behind
and
go
back
to
using
my
birth
name,
the
name
given
to
me
by
my
parents.
But
then
I
remember
why
I
created
my
foreign
name
in
the
first
place.
It
was
my
way
of
escaping
from
the
pain
and
hurt
I
had
experienced
and
starting
afresh. In
the
end,
I
have
come
to
realize
that
the
pain
I
feel
is
not
because
of
my
foreign
name
alone,
but
because
of
the
memories
and
experiences
that
come
with
it.
But
just
like
everything
else
in
life,
I
have
to
learn
to
take
the
good
with
the
bad,
the
joy
with
the
pain.
And
maybe,
one
day,
my
foreign
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will
no
longer
be
a
reminder
of
my
sorrows,
but
a
symbol
of
my
strength
and
resilience.